Rantings of a Crazy Yena

Alrighty, so to be quiet honest, while there are several things i would be more than happy to enjoy, this holiday season, I know it can be very limiting on what i could possibly receive, due to the shipping hell that is bound to come up with the approaching holiday season. Also there isn't much in the town, and while i could think gift cards would be totally awesome, they really wouldn't be to useful unless i drove down to Denver to use them.

So instead of putting up a list of things,i would be more than thrilled to receive, I hope that, by making this post, i don't sound snobby or selfish.

Before i lost my small graveyard shift job, I had put a deposit down on partial suit being created by Jill0r. Now that deposit, is still good, and guarantee's me a spot regardless. However, my completion date, for the suit to be finished, and sent out, would be the end of March 2010. (of course assuming everything was paid in full)

I'd still like to try and have this happen, so that when RMFC 2010 rolls around in august, i can proudly debut a suit, and join in the crazy fursuiting antics.

So here is my little x-mas wish.

Instead of trying to scour a store, amidst the insane holiday shoppers, trying to find that perfect gift, i humbly ask for a gift of cash, to help me reach the goal of having my partial made. As I said before, i hope that this doesn't come off selfish or snobby, but it's the only holiday wish i have.

So below, is my paypal donation button. I do appreciate anyone who takes in my holiday wish, though if you can't, that's fine to. I know how the holiday season can be a bit taxing.

For anyone curious, the amount left on the partial, currently is $720 (plus paypal fees/ shipping) I don't expect to have that entire amount paid off with any gift i might receive from this post. It's simply there, to be up front and honest on how much i do have left.

Again, if anyone does help me with this holiday wish, just know i'm extremely grateful, and thankful.

Love and Hugs,
~Rizzy

Alrighty, so because i wanna give a small head start to the holiday mail rush, i'm putting a list together to send out some cards.

If You'd like a card, all you have to do is comment here with your name and address (the comments will be screened) and then let me know if you'd prefer blue or white :D You'll find out when you get your card what i ment.

Anyways If you wanna send a card back, i wouldn't mind, so my address of course will be on the card. The list below, is of the people i already have an address and card for. So as soon as you comment i'll update the list below.

List of People i already have cards prepped for.

Laken
Kyrene
Taben
Zuki
Ulario
FM
Westly
Timber
Freefox

Ok so this was a vid shot by my sister, of her son sliding down the stairs. Apparently he only does this in his pj's any other time he slowly walks down while holding onto the railing. The vid was shot in real time, no editing (mainly cause it was shot by phone cam) The beginning of the vid is a little fuzzy cause apparently it didn't like being uploaded, but does even out. Might take a few tries to fully see what happens, but its still cute none the less, cause ny nephew is a dork even if he is 1 year 2 months and some odd days old. And when he falls at the end, no he was not hurt, apparently giggled and went on to play with toys from what i was told.

Also sorry it is so small any bigger and the entire video distorts horribly.

Actually this is what happens when i get bored, and am on a repo fix *twitch* I originally only ment to look for one picture, and this ended up happening XD. So below the Cut is random repo funnies or avatars i found. ENJOY! Only one image wouldn't post, it was a gif file of the genterns doing thier dance in we started this opera shit. though if you want it i can always e-mail it.

Was linked to a website yesterday called Cake Wrecks ( http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/ )

Most of the cakes and stuff on there are more along the lines of professional fuck ups, though now and then they do post pictures of amazing cake works that are just amazing!

While Browsing, i came across some Steam punk Cakes that i figured some of you might get a kick out of. They even amazed me.

Alright. This will probably be a very touchy journal to some, but i want to state that in this case, I DID NOT kill this animal. I found a Red Fox today, who had been hit by a car on the highway, and far off to the side of the road dead.

Now Normally i ignore road kill, for the simple fact that 1. it's usually a raccoon, and 2. if it was in the road it be just pancaked and nasty from cars passing.

So why is this case different? Because This Fox was off far enough to the side, and not bloody gory or whatever like most, and IF it had been alive and injured, i'm sure i could have called Division of Wildlife to perhaps help rehabilitate it.

I turn around, jump out, and walk up to the rather large fox, and nudged the tail with my foot. No sign, nudge again, nothing, so i look it over, and it's a rather beautiful animal to say the least, everything was in tact, and was still warm, so probably only a few hours old from being hit.

So i pick it up, carry it back to my truck, and pull out the rain poncho tarp thingy i had in the back to wrap him up in, and head into town. I figure a animal like this shouldn't go to waste and rot on the side of the road. Still being fresh i headed to a taxidermist in town, to see if i can possibly get the pelt, tail, and possibly the skull (which if i wanted to i could sell off).

Head to the one, get a pricing to have him skinned. At this point i have to go to Division of Wildlife to get a Tag oking the fact that i have a dead fox, mostly because Fox Season isn't up till closer to december, and if the place gets caught with a fox in thier possession no tag it means a hefty fine.

DoW guy checks the fox out, making sure it wasn't shot, it was indeed killed by probably being hit by a car. Take the fox back, so it can be treated, skinned and then i can take it to the Hide tanning place, for it to be treated.

So At this point, By the end of the month, i will have a Fox pelt/tail for display.

And I'm sure most people reading this, might think this is cruel. But Also realize this, this is a hunting town i live in. People hunt elk and deer and other various animals just so they can go and get it mounted to hang on thier wall. I think this is wrong, and I'd never hunt for sport, and i would NEVER hurt or kill an animal just for the pelt.

ME? The way i see it, while yes the animal is dead, I can preserve its beauty even after its long gone. If I had left it there, DoW does their road cleanups, and more than likely just incinerate the "Roadkill" when their done.

Perhaps this all made sense, perhaps not. Either way there will be people on either side who will agree or disagree with what i did. I'm keeping comments screened, because i feel it necessary as this post will probably cause enough controversy.

I DO NOT approve of poaching, BTW.

So under the cut, Are a few pictures, of the fox. The black markings on his front legs, seem a little weird, only because they do not wrap fully around like i have seen on foxes. His fur is thick, and colorful due to winter coming in. In full length from nose to tail, About 4 feet long or so, or in better comparison the size of a medium dog

NONE of the photos are bloody gory what not, so if you want to look feel free, if not thats fine too. Still these are photos of the beautiful fox, who's life was cut short.
( Fox Pictures )

So don't let the title of the journal fool you. Just got a random e-mail from the art track lead for FC 2010, asking if i'd be interested in hosting an art panel at the con.

There is like only 3 other e-mail addies attached to this message sent out. Fairly sure that its legit, seeing as one addy belongs to another artist i watch on FA, who is also a fursuiter.

Now why i won't say who, is only because i'm unsure if they'd really want the info shared. Still I feel the e-mail is real enough, though i'm curious as to why out of the hundreds of artists out there, most which are much better than myself, why i was asked, along with only 3 others.

I'm slightly flattered, to be honest, but at the same time FC is one of those cons i don't really see myself going to for a while, only because it can be rather expensive to go, and i can only see myself attending the local con, simply because its local.

I dunno, kinda wanted to share this, because even if i did want to host a panel at a con, i wouldn't have any idea what to host.

So as of late, after coming up from a wonderfull monday down in aurora, My car now sounds funny. kinda makes a puttering noise. No big deal there.

Anyways, work is still being a jerk, only being paid for 9 hours rater than the 10 i worked on halloween/daylight savings time. seriously thats like illegal right? meh v.v *insert long rant here*

Anyways skipping the rant at least for now, i must say i feel like crap, or more so as if i have been hit by a truck. Back is in constant pain, and the cysts on my ovaries are flaring up again, which only aggravates the lower back pain more, and not getting to sit at work doesn't much help.
Also feel like i'm in a constant dizzy state. almost more like i feel like its a hang over.

It's almost hard to explain, cause its dizzyish but almost nauseating too at moments. Had a few moments at work were i had to grab hold of the counter just so i wouldn't like fall over. also just plain moments were i just kinda zone out, not for any reason. Other than that i always feel overly hot at work. can't turn the cooler on, but if i take the hoodie i have off then i am freezing.

I hope i'm not catching shit some customers have come in with. At this point i've had several, and i repeat several who come in just after an ER trip with a family memeber or child, to get munchies, only to explain thier stressed cause the person they went in with turned out to have the H1N1.

I DO NOT WANT! I couldn't afford to catch that shit, and hell i have no idea how contagious it is cause i havn't really kept track of the swine flu thing. Bad enough i already feel like crap and struggle to get threw a shift at work.



Now Aside from the blah stuff above, got a final price on my Partial. Also don't work till next friday - sunday, and hopefully hours will return to normal so i don't just have the 26 hours.

But for now i shall go cause i need to go to work *rolls eyes*

So managed to finally go down and chill out with friends down in denver. Seriously was over due, but made of awesome win!  Ended up splurging and got like 12 more buttons for my button hat, and the new Dir en Grey CD.  While at Barns and nobles, i found an awesome cupcake book, but i got the repo movie instead ^^  And drooled at many other things which i had to tell myself no over cause i'm a spaz ^^

Anywho go back to lakens, watch some you tube stuff, went in serch of missing wallet, i bought food noms for everyone ^^ and then had to take off for the night since the drive back is usually alot harder than going down.

Got to silverthorn safely. Snagged a monster coffee thing to drink, and headed off towards kremmling which is the halfway point between me and denver,

All is good except for a small herd of der deciding they just wanted to  chill in the middle of the road. cause seriously if i couldda hit em with my car and keep em....they woulda been food noms > : 3   Stupid deer.

Get to top of rabbit ears pass and pull over for a 15 min nap, mostly because  i was feeling sorta dizzy and misplaced not really tired.  I blame all the jack ass drivers who, while i turned off my brights to  the normal lights ( LIKE I'M SUPPOSE TO!)  they just kept thier brights on, which between windsheild my glasses and the snow on rabbit ears pass, was just to trippy for me.

so bout a 30 min nap, feel refreshed, head off to steamboat and to home.

For the Record, deer are still stupid, and apparently racoons blend with pavement  so easy at night, that when light reflects on thier eyes, just looks like floaty shiny balls bouncing on the road o.0.


Um now have been up just bout 27 hours, so i'm gonna zonk out.  Did get my 3 yena ceramic figures i won from e-bay. They are awesome.   Buttonhat, even awesomer, and now has a grand total of  66 buttons on it ^^


Tilll later!  

I dun have any o.o small "light frost" as fokes up here said. quickly melted out and is just cold out with a nippy wind.

Though i can't gloat bout it to long cause by the weekend were suppose to have at least 3 feet or so >.< And i dread this cause my truck takes forever to warm up :(

In other news, hours at work are on the suck, but everyone is feeling it since between the like 7 of us that works there we have to split 204 hours. in the long run its not alot really. I have this friday and saterday, then off untill the next friday/ sat/ sun. Hopefully after this week and the next two i can be brought back up to the 38 or so i had before. Hardly having 18 hours puts a small kink in things >.<

Suppose its not to bad considering i'm still with parents and i don't really leave unless its to work. and back, possibly a small errand to wally world then home.

And on the horror film side of things (well i suppose horror/sci-fi/fantasy/thriller) I've come to realize after i got some movies to occupy me, was that as a kid, i could get away with watching practically anything horror / scary wise Excpt for the Chucky Series. o.0 Like really?

Mom said its cause the doll factor mighta freaked me out, even though i never played with them as a kid. i dunno o.0 But you'd think movies like Tremors and critters and things like that woulda scared me half to death, and yet i like thrived on them... i still do >.>

Either way i shall go and continue to stay warm eat mah cheese it's and zone out on horror films ^^

Alrighty, this is a small something i need to rant about, it erks me a little. I'll explain what happened, then have my little rant of an opinion.


Work is all fine and normal, rather quiet shift, with the occasional people coming in for a drink or cigs blah blah. Well a couple rush in, asking to use our phone. (normally we tell them there is a payphone outside) but they said they needed to call 911. So i hand it over, curious, i stop what i'm doing to find out what happened. Apparently they drove by a spot in town, and there was some guy on the side of the road face down in the ground. From what they said they drove by 2 more times to confirm it was a body and not an animal, then came to the store to call the cops and such. Well They leave, and come back after going out to talk to cops, turns out it was only a really drunk guy who passed out on the side of the road, and was receiving medical care, cause it was cold out and he seemed to be there for a while.


Here is were i step in. I suppose in my rational mind, i wouldn't have driven off leaving the body by the side of the road to go call for help. Granted if i had no cell phone i'd have to do that yea. But even then, i'd at least get out, to see if the guy was if anything at least alive and if he was alright. If possible, even try and leave some one there while i go to call help, or depending on the situation even offer help for the guy while i go to phone for help.

Maybe it's just me, but i figured that instead of leaving the poor guy there to call for help, i'd try to make some attempt to see what the situation was and if i could help rather than "oh my gosh body need to go another mile down the road to call for help."

Either way, by the end of the night, the dude got medical attention and probably got home safely by police. Things were alright, no one died or was seriously hurt, but in my opinion the couple who found him probably could have handled that a tad differently.

So Finally got to see the finished badge of my fursona dressed as pennywise! And It is epiclly amazing!

(Doesn't take much to keep me amused and happy)

Anyways Still very awesome and so well done! I may not have a red nose, but i think my cackling yena laugh would be a bit more menacing ^^

So without further ado, here it is!

Due to suckage at work, after i work this fri /sat/sun I will then have Mon-Thur off, Work Friday and Saturday and get Sunday off.

Being i have to work ON Halloween, My Costume shall be simple >.>

I wear a white collared t-shirt, tan pants, and a tie. I will have a red pen in my front pocket, and a red (washable colored marker) spot at the bottom of the pocket.

Simple and amusing ^^ Because only one person so far has gotten the reference as to who i'm posing after.

Comments will be screened if you care to take a gander at the reference of my costume :D

Cause i'm totally cool like that ^^ an because suiting is tons of fun! Meaning, eventually once i get the suit, this means. FURSUIT BOWLING!

Anyways, been in discussion with Jill0r actually about making a partial of Rizzy for me ^^ If getting it as a full-suit isn't to much more than what she's asking for the partial i might just do that.! One way or another i'll at least have a partial. The suit, (once only a few small things are talked out, ) Will be completed sometime between March - May 2010. If anything i hope i can get it before my birthday in April!

So i will be ubber cute and toony! ^_^ and then the scavenger war between me and laken can begin >:3

All shall be epic! Will post something later when i get updates on the full deaile-o

*bounces up and down excitedly then runs off to zone out in front of horror films and dark chocolate*

Alright first off. Most people can tell that i've been obsessed with Stephen King's It and the main villan being Pennywise the clown. Last year i was going bonkers for oogie boogie. Either way, i'm nuts *shrugs*

Well the first picture, is actually just a sketch of a badge i commissioned of my fursona dressed as Pennywise, and even as just a sketch it looks amazing i can't wait to see the finished product.




Anywho the next one, is what i'm getting from the halloween round of the real media exchange! It gives me reason to dress up at random and go trick or treating >.> Cause yea ^^
The cuteness it overloading! still is awesome and makes me happy.

Now my small theroy on halloween is this. All year long we tell our kids to not take candy from strangers, but this is the one holiday that its tottally ok! Cause we all know we try to scope ot the neighborhoods with big houses and the people who give out candy bars rather than the small party mix treets. Its also a holliday that i think no matter how old you are you can go trick or treating. As a kid you go round as late as you can, and as you get older you go with friends, eventuilly when you have kids (if you do) it gives you more reason to go out and get candy! I know my parents use to trick or treat with me when i was little. And the best part. If you come back early enough, you sort threw and what you don't want you rehand out ^^


Now the last little thought here before i crash for the night again, is this music video. Really it shouldn't be so catchy and amusing being it has clips from the movie IT but its catchy and not bad ^^ so enjoy!

Well I sure hope so. I have a schedule for this week and next, but i requested the 30th and the 31st off, hopeing that i might get those days off. The 30th is a payday, and well halloween is the next day. I'm hoping that i'll be able to come down and visit with people, possibly crash somewere for the night if its not to much trouble then head back up.

This is all possible, cause i now have my own vehicle + its on a payday!

i can atleast hope, so anyone else have plans or somthing? unno just need somthing to do i dun wanna be stuck up here on halloween >.

Ok so i've tottally obsessed over this for the past month or so i think. and this icon = major win ^^ should be getting a badge too from some one else along the same lines, not to mention the book is on it's way so i have my own copy  >:3

In other news,  Went and finally bought the sequal to the movie The Lost Boys with Kiefer Sutherland  and let me say that   The Lost Boys 2 The Tribe    KILLED THE ENTIRE AWESOME THAT WAS THE LOST BOYS!!!   serious fail on many levels it was ok but it made me cry.  Whats worse?!  THEY ARE MAKING A 3RD ONE!!! Called   The Lost Boys The Thirst


My inner happy for horror films are seriously dieing.  Now people know why i stick to classic's like Tremors, Critters,  Stephen King Flicks,   blood gore ripp em up with cheap 3effects that look ten times better than digital...

I'm a horror nut so sue me..  Till then.  BTW I'm probably one of the few who prefered Marco (aka Alex Winter)  as a vampire than Kiefer >.>  Either way! *goes to hide out for the day.

Cause alot of you out there who might read my journals need cheering up, or well jsut because!  Anyways...

So i rarely post photography, but this was one sitting on my camera, which apparently my parents took one morning while out venturing. So I had to share, because i rather like how th3e colors mingle in the clouds as the sun is coming up! ^^
Taken in Craig, Colorado

So I got to work today for a 4 hour shift. Not feeling well hardly any voice and running a fevor. Still i do my best, having taken some dayquil to help.

So 3 kids come in. 2 girls couldnt be any older than maybe 6 or 7ish. They also had thier little brother who maybe 1 year old or so with no socks and no shoes on howling and screaming (because he was cold no doubt regardless of winter clothing otherwise.)

They get a pile of candy and soda bout 20$ worth and try handing me a food stamp card. so 1. it won't work anyways. 2 they have 0 adult with them which would be required anyways for them to use the card. So at this point io tell them they need to come back and have an adult who can buy the stuff.

So moving stuff aside the kids walk out the door and around to the payphone. of course i have a line of customers who are patiant and understand i'm not up to my best. so as i get done with the line i notice that almost every person walking out the door the 2 girls have gone up and asked for change so they can "call thier parents" 30 mins go by and they come in with change get some sodas and goof round.

Aggitated i told them that it was time for them to leave since they bought thier items, and could no longer linger. They gave me a dumb look at which point i also told them that if they stood outside asking for changes again then i wouldnt allow them back inside and or call the cops.

Harsh no? Well after they left a cop had been called by some one else, and i explained what had happened and which direction they went and he left.

So apparently this makes me a bitch as some one said. Sorry I'm sick AND doing my job. Go bitch to my manager if you don't like it.


Although the shift did end on a high note! Some guy brought in a bingo scratch card (normally a $3 scratch card to buy) said it was a looser could i toss it. Said sure, but noticed the top half was unscratched. He got his stuff paid then left. I decide to scratch the top half and i won $5! so woot! my win his loss.

I've actually been saving spare change i find or am given. i put it in a lock box then forget bout it. not sure what i'll save up for but its handy. Either way i now head off into awesome sleep land so i can feel better before my shift friday night!